"Lord, please, I beg you, allow me to get the scholarship and enter in this university, it is the best in the Country lord, and all my friends are here, I beg you, this time, follow my plan, could you? Lord, I know this is the best, it will be good for my CV and I'll get a job for sure, plus I dont have to say goodbye to my whole life, so, I beg you, In Jesus's Name, Amen" Like this I prayed back in late 2016, I was waiting for the results of the Scholarship to come. Why did i asked for my idea of my life to be fulfilled? Because I Though I knew better, I concluded that getting in the best school was the best, plus not having to have that awful "I'm leaving, for good" talk with my best friend, and by best friend I mean someone who was there when no one else was. Also it meant not moving to a city that I despised with all my heart and soul and that avoided as long as I could. So I guessed that staying in that city was the best. What Happened? The very fact that I'm writing this is an indicator of the result... against all odds, because I'm a pretty good student and there are not that many applicants to that specific medical program, I was not picked, therefore I had to move to another city to go to university. It was, obviously for the better, although at first it felt like God had forsaken me, I was about to cry "Eli Eli, Lama Sebachtani" (ok, no, thats an exaggeration), but it did felt unjust. I had, in my mind been a good chirstian, I had recently start to have a huge revival in my faith, so I was in a good track, yet, God Told me to shut up, and to stop arguing, It was going to be done HIS way, no point in arguing.
I'm gonna mainly cover my personal story from the moment of arriving to this new city, while adding some food for thought every so often to complement, adding biblical verses, etc. but this part is mainly a real life example of a christian that need a revival... and a BIG one. A christian that fell from God's grace and was starting to butter the idea of leaving God up. This is my story
Back in may 2015 I moved to this new city, drawback? it had no Evangelical Churches I liked, or at least not that I knew of, so church life was over for me, coming from a very active year in the church, the "activest" (aka: most active) in my life so far, It wasnt particularly active, I had not been in revivals, or Retreats, but I was part of 2 youth groups, go to church 2 to 3 times a week, etc. But in everything I participated I participated full of Joy and Church was something I looked forwards to. I was an immature christian, but I was a Christian for sure. Times goes by, and my Christian interior remains, but my outer layer starts to fall off. I met this mormon girl, and after almost 2 years since my last Evangelical Sunday service, I was attending faily regularly to a mormon church, not a mormon, but now, I was planning to convert due to a Girl. Yes, it had come to a point where I was about to convert from Evangelical Christian to mormonism (LDS) for a lady. Like Adan and Eve going east far from the garden of Eden, Like the builders of the tower of babbel went east to build the Tower, I had moved to the east... a city with the explicit name of "East point" or "Point of the East" (Punta del Este), and this moving East, like everywhere in the Bible, meant bad news for me, I got away from the Lord, even if going away from the Lord was not the purpose, like neither was the Babbel's tower, but it had the same effect. Moving East meant going away from the Lord, Not going to church, loosing my commitment to Him, acting like if he didnt exist, and now, maybe not only acting like the God was not the God of the Bible, but the God of the Book of Mormon. Had I remained in the East, like Adan and Eve, I would had probably left God forever... or at least got myself into mormonism, which for me ment basically abandoning my God, for another, very similar, but different God. But like He did with the isrealites while in Egypt, God sent someone that begun my spiritual revival, although a dangerous one, and that revival came to its climax on the very abandonment of such eastern land. Like the old testament shows, Going east meant going away from God, and then after some struggle and asking for God's help, although I asked for the wrong type of help, he sent me west, away from where I departed from God. This is something that might seem trivial, but I'm amazed at how everything relates and how my own story of fall from Grace and my delivery to God once again follows a pretty similar outline to many, many old testament stories. This, and the fact that coming to this city was the least likely option, only further proves me that God exists, and that He tweaks our enviroment and circumstances to make sure we stay on his plan, with never having to change our behavior, As I'll later point out, I could still go mormon, but my reason to be such, was taken away, for even if the option remains, now, the desire was extinguished.
And here is where we are now, January-Early February 2017, I'm waiting to hear back from the university and other several scholarships, praying to God to be able to stay with this girl because I thought she was the one and I thought she was sent by God into my life, getting each day more spiritual once again... but starting to dance with LDS church.. and I was seriously considering Ditching my other dance partner.. Jesus, in the bench for this new hot lady. All the while praying for God to keep me in that city.. looking back I can see my plan was awful, but I can only say that thanks to the situation now. God did not allowed me to stay there because He knew I was treading dangerous waters, and even if at the last moments there I had broken up with mormon lady, He knew I was considering to become mormon to get her back (we broke up because I was not a mormon.. so yeah, converting would have been a solution, and because we fit nicely otherwise... that could have been the beginning of a happy relationship). So God sent me far away from that city, to another university and so far that going there regularly is impractical and expensive. But what was that for? maybe he could have shown me a Church there, couldnt He? Yes, but my motivation for possibly going mormon were not religious, but emotional, He Had to physically remove me from that city, cut my ties with it right away, and he did, because not only did I move, but so did my family.. I have practically 0 business with that city now.
Thanks to the revival I was having before moving to this new city I searched for a church here, and I found exactly what I needed. Now I can see how God called me to live my old self, that old me that was considering becoming a mormon, that self that visited Porn sites more often that facebook (in my Defense.. i barely use facebook anyways). He did not change my beliefs, I could still want to join the LDS church in order to get the girl back, maybe a long distance relationship, but he knew that the problem, was not my will, but the influence I was getting, so he tweaked some variables in my life and voila! I've ditched mormonism once and for all. I'm alive in my faith, and Happier than ever, and I'm following Jesus. This topic relates to my previous posts, community free will and sunday Christians, my surroundings were not helping my faith, and I was becoming not even a Sunday Christian, but a shadow of that, I was turning into a Christian because I identified as such, nothing else. Many would say I was a mormon! Going to Mormon church, my significant other was a Mormon girl, my best friend was a mormon, and not only going to the regular "service" but also to sunday school, I even wanted to go to Seminar or Institute, maybe go to the FSY mormon camp, and I gotta say, I'd still love to go to all of those, just to understand better what my friend and Ex talked about and the feelings, etc. but just as an understanding exercise, not to actually learn.
What I'm trying to get across with this testimony of my life, is: God is well aware of our plans, but His' is way better, sometimes he allows us to act on our plans and then wait for us to realize how much we screwed up (that's the appropriate word in this case...) and go back to him, in other instances like in my case, I believe that some plans will undoubtedly lead to a place where we will not turn to Him again, so he personally takes it upon Himself to take us out. I still believe that girl was sent by God in my life, she was what I prayed for, a good, kind, (pretty), girl that was a very real believer, but I messed up thinking that she was the one, or that she served as a long time thing, I think now that her role was to make me learn a lesson, and we have to accept that sometimes the Lord sends people to our lives which only purpose is to teach us something. In my case, it was to give me a revival, make me want to have a closer and more personal relationship with God, to make me want to go to church, to make me want to experience true faith. but then God took her out of the picture, and even though she was a dangerous lesson to learn, as it could have led me astray for good, God was there, like He always is, looking after our best interest.
God, as I said in my Free will post, already knows the outcome of all decisions, so he knows what the best path is, and even if we think one path is better because we feel like that's the case, he knows for sure.
So the next time you pray, ask yes for what you wish, but if that which you ask for does not come to be, dont think God has forsaken you like I did. On the contrary, if things dont happen like you wanted to, probably is because God is walking you through His plan, which at the end, will be hundredfold better.
Lets trust in the Guy who made us, and the starts, and the forests, and everything visible or otherwise... He's much wiser, so instead of being the annoying little kid asking his father to pleaaaase let him eat all the Halloween candy at one, lets us trust in the wise parent that know's that bad for us, even if it looks good and tempting. And when God's plan deviates from our's, lets not be anxious of when the good part will come, no one likes the kid that is asking "are we there yet?" all the way. In the next and final part, I'm going to explore what mean to give in to God's plan and how we can start to see his plan for us more easily. Many Christians think God is something that you either get 100% right, or 100% wrong... spoiler alert, He's not and He tells us this.
The next part, will be much less riddled with personal stories, and much heavier with general reflections, take care and reflect on this little piece of advice... If it pulls you away from the Lord, it's probably bad news.
May God bless y'all
I'm gonna mainly cover my personal story from the moment of arriving to this new city, while adding some food for thought every so often to complement, adding biblical verses, etc. but this part is mainly a real life example of a christian that need a revival... and a BIG one. A christian that fell from God's grace and was starting to butter the idea of leaving God up. This is my story
Back in may 2015 I moved to this new city, drawback? it had no Evangelical Churches I liked, or at least not that I knew of, so church life was over for me, coming from a very active year in the church, the "activest" (aka: most active) in my life so far, It wasnt particularly active, I had not been in revivals, or Retreats, but I was part of 2 youth groups, go to church 2 to 3 times a week, etc. But in everything I participated I participated full of Joy and Church was something I looked forwards to. I was an immature christian, but I was a Christian for sure. Times goes by, and my Christian interior remains, but my outer layer starts to fall off. I met this mormon girl, and after almost 2 years since my last Evangelical Sunday service, I was attending faily regularly to a mormon church, not a mormon, but now, I was planning to convert due to a Girl. Yes, it had come to a point where I was about to convert from Evangelical Christian to mormonism (LDS) for a lady. Like Adan and Eve going east far from the garden of Eden, Like the builders of the tower of babbel went east to build the Tower, I had moved to the east... a city with the explicit name of "East point" or "Point of the East" (Punta del Este), and this moving East, like everywhere in the Bible, meant bad news for me, I got away from the Lord, even if going away from the Lord was not the purpose, like neither was the Babbel's tower, but it had the same effect. Moving East meant going away from the Lord, Not going to church, loosing my commitment to Him, acting like if he didnt exist, and now, maybe not only acting like the God was not the God of the Bible, but the God of the Book of Mormon. Had I remained in the East, like Adan and Eve, I would had probably left God forever... or at least got myself into mormonism, which for me ment basically abandoning my God, for another, very similar, but different God. But like He did with the isrealites while in Egypt, God sent someone that begun my spiritual revival, although a dangerous one, and that revival came to its climax on the very abandonment of such eastern land. Like the old testament shows, Going east meant going away from God, and then after some struggle and asking for God's help, although I asked for the wrong type of help, he sent me west, away from where I departed from God. This is something that might seem trivial, but I'm amazed at how everything relates and how my own story of fall from Grace and my delivery to God once again follows a pretty similar outline to many, many old testament stories. This, and the fact that coming to this city was the least likely option, only further proves me that God exists, and that He tweaks our enviroment and circumstances to make sure we stay on his plan, with never having to change our behavior, As I'll later point out, I could still go mormon, but my reason to be such, was taken away, for even if the option remains, now, the desire was extinguished.
And here is where we are now, January-Early February 2017, I'm waiting to hear back from the university and other several scholarships, praying to God to be able to stay with this girl because I thought she was the one and I thought she was sent by God into my life, getting each day more spiritual once again... but starting to dance with LDS church.. and I was seriously considering Ditching my other dance partner.. Jesus, in the bench for this new hot lady. All the while praying for God to keep me in that city.. looking back I can see my plan was awful, but I can only say that thanks to the situation now. God did not allowed me to stay there because He knew I was treading dangerous waters, and even if at the last moments there I had broken up with mormon lady, He knew I was considering to become mormon to get her back (we broke up because I was not a mormon.. so yeah, converting would have been a solution, and because we fit nicely otherwise... that could have been the beginning of a happy relationship). So God sent me far away from that city, to another university and so far that going there regularly is impractical and expensive. But what was that for? maybe he could have shown me a Church there, couldnt He? Yes, but my motivation for possibly going mormon were not religious, but emotional, He Had to physically remove me from that city, cut my ties with it right away, and he did, because not only did I move, but so did my family.. I have practically 0 business with that city now.
Thanks to the revival I was having before moving to this new city I searched for a church here, and I found exactly what I needed. Now I can see how God called me to live my old self, that old me that was considering becoming a mormon, that self that visited Porn sites more often that facebook (in my Defense.. i barely use facebook anyways). He did not change my beliefs, I could still want to join the LDS church in order to get the girl back, maybe a long distance relationship, but he knew that the problem, was not my will, but the influence I was getting, so he tweaked some variables in my life and voila! I've ditched mormonism once and for all. I'm alive in my faith, and Happier than ever, and I'm following Jesus. This topic relates to my previous posts, community free will and sunday Christians, my surroundings were not helping my faith, and I was becoming not even a Sunday Christian, but a shadow of that, I was turning into a Christian because I identified as such, nothing else. Many would say I was a mormon! Going to Mormon church, my significant other was a Mormon girl, my best friend was a mormon, and not only going to the regular "service" but also to sunday school, I even wanted to go to Seminar or Institute, maybe go to the FSY mormon camp, and I gotta say, I'd still love to go to all of those, just to understand better what my friend and Ex talked about and the feelings, etc. but just as an understanding exercise, not to actually learn.
What I'm trying to get across with this testimony of my life, is: God is well aware of our plans, but His' is way better, sometimes he allows us to act on our plans and then wait for us to realize how much we screwed up (that's the appropriate word in this case...) and go back to him, in other instances like in my case, I believe that some plans will undoubtedly lead to a place where we will not turn to Him again, so he personally takes it upon Himself to take us out. I still believe that girl was sent by God in my life, she was what I prayed for, a good, kind, (pretty), girl that was a very real believer, but I messed up thinking that she was the one, or that she served as a long time thing, I think now that her role was to make me learn a lesson, and we have to accept that sometimes the Lord sends people to our lives which only purpose is to teach us something. In my case, it was to give me a revival, make me want to have a closer and more personal relationship with God, to make me want to go to church, to make me want to experience true faith. but then God took her out of the picture, and even though she was a dangerous lesson to learn, as it could have led me astray for good, God was there, like He always is, looking after our best interest.
God, as I said in my Free will post, already knows the outcome of all decisions, so he knows what the best path is, and even if we think one path is better because we feel like that's the case, he knows for sure.
So the next time you pray, ask yes for what you wish, but if that which you ask for does not come to be, dont think God has forsaken you like I did. On the contrary, if things dont happen like you wanted to, probably is because God is walking you through His plan, which at the end, will be hundredfold better.
Lets trust in the Guy who made us, and the starts, and the forests, and everything visible or otherwise... He's much wiser, so instead of being the annoying little kid asking his father to pleaaaase let him eat all the Halloween candy at one, lets us trust in the wise parent that know's that bad for us, even if it looks good and tempting. And when God's plan deviates from our's, lets not be anxious of when the good part will come, no one likes the kid that is asking "are we there yet?" all the way. In the next and final part, I'm going to explore what mean to give in to God's plan and how we can start to see his plan for us more easily. Many Christians think God is something that you either get 100% right, or 100% wrong... spoiler alert, He's not and He tells us this.
The next part, will be much less riddled with personal stories, and much heavier with general reflections, take care and reflect on this little piece of advice... If it pulls you away from the Lord, it's probably bad news.
May God bless y'all
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